If you hide behind a mask, There is entire world you will never see.
What could you possibly envision if you are not capable of uncovering your eyes?
When we are involved in trying to find happiness there seems to be a place that we need to escape to even understand what it is and how to go about appreciating it. There is a destination within everything that eventually leads to a place of peace inside of ones self. There is no way of knowing where we are headed if we are looking into dark space.
You must find the ability to remove what is blocking your vision and allow yourself to take in the things that will welcome all that is needed to make finding happiness worth it. The transformation from what you are currently stuck in will depend on you being able to see why you are doing it in the first place.
Developing new patterns in your mind will allow you to stop and see where your choices will take you. When you see things clearly you then have the ability to make a choice instead of running in blind.
Are you willing to open your eyes and see what makes the entire attempt to change worth it? Figure out how to do it and start now!