An outlook you believe in will determine what is important to see for guidance through blinding times.

Our vision is important, but the heart that supports it is what makes it all happen.

There will be times when your demons will get desperate enough to try anything to get in the way of your new life. They will do anything possible to plant in your mind that you are not worth it, and that this process will never work for you to become a different person. I remember so many nights during the beginning stages of my attempt where things were so uncomfortable which raised question of what I was trying to do. They raised madness in my daily thought process because my brain was not used to being ok and did not really want to be. It was such a desperate place to live inside of because I did not understand anything about myself due to never taking the time to care.

When I truly hit a bottom that I knew was ready to end my life for good, something changed indefinitely in my mind. There was a place of understanding that there was a decision to be made and that it was to happen right now. Luckily, I had just enough belief in myself to attempt whatever was needed to survive. Fight or Flight never registered in my min.

It was survive or do not. I could not leave behind an image of weakness or failure. I decided to pick up my problems, clean up my shit, and become a human who now has a vision that allows me to look where needed instead of staring into things that will land me in places I will never go again.

What will you do today to battle your weak self and how will you defeat the attempts they make to shut you down?