Even cold and dark times hold breathtaking outcomes if you open your eyes to the horizon.

There is nothing to be said when you are entrapped in cyclones of torment. You have to look at what is ahead of you and do everything it takes to not loose sight.

Sometimes the end result can seem so far away. Everything in between you and the distance will seem overbearing and giving yourself a chance will be slim to none because it will be to hard to get there. This is a valid outlook when you have been in the same cycle of endings for so long. What you don’t attempt to know, you cannot attempt to accomplish. Much of my life I have missed by staying busy and comfortable in the only things that I haver known, which is everything but myself.

Although the world is in a state right now that forces many people into craziness does not mean that it has the same effect on everyone. The time during this pandemic had slaughtered my self image internally. My outlook on life was not an outlook at all. I did not care to see anything but numbing myself from everything that I have never known. Imagine having life stop and not knowing shit about yourself. I am not able to make up the extent of how little I knew and how much I still do not know about who I am. I did so many countless things and made so many countless attempts to have life stop so I did not have to worry about it. What kind of a person would I have seen myself as from a place where I gave up?

It does not matter where you are now if you are not willing to do what it takes to get out of what destroys you. Truthfully when I was unsuccessful on my attempt to stop was the result of my new start. This made me understand and see clearly for the first time that my purpose was to be fulfilled in this life before my time comes. I write these messages to help people that have lost hope because I know exactly where they are. I cry every time I read these to myself after writing them because I realize the time lost.

Please do not allow yourself to allow yourself to stew in sadness any longer. Keep your eye on what you want and do whatever is needed to get there in your own way with your own meaning. If you do this will all that you believe in then I can promise you that the light on the other side is worth every bit of the journey!