Happy Thanksgiving and my sincerest thanks to you for allowing me the opportunity to follow what my heart is meant to do.

I will never forget what it felt like to be away from not only my family, but myself through the holidays. There was a lot of misery that reflected my position in life at the time. My hope never faded and my heart never stopped. I eventually overcame with determination to change and that pushed me through to the current version of me.

Happy Thanksgiving to every beautiful soul in this world. I hope that you are thankful enough to give yourself a chance to appreciate every person around you that has made a difference. I hope that you can accept the challenges that have served as stepping stones in the journey to following your dreams.

I have to be honest in saying that the holiday season is a time in the year where I struggle so heavily because of the damage I caused over time. My god what I would give back to have control of my decisions and a thought process behind who and what it would effect. My brain works in so many different ways that what is suggest as a norm amongst others does not seem like an option for myself. Suggested practices although I respect them do not register for me, because I have a mindset that has evolved over time and told me that I was weak if I was not able to do it alone. This landed me in so many similar trenches and the ground on every one of them kept falling through introducing me to deeper one. I am thankful for wanting to live now. I am thankful for being able to sit right here and write these messages in hopes that it will make a difference somewhere in even one persons life.

I am thankful that it is an irreplaceable feeling within giving ourselves a chance. I am thankful to not set expectations on others but allow myself to be the captain of my own ship. I steer through all of the rough seas to find calm waters.

I have been through hell and survived through “flames(fire) that tried to burn hope” and extinguished it all by “gripping the reigns(rains)” and running my problems instead of letting them run me. I will never let myself fail me again and by doing so I am thankful to be able to love my life moving forward. HAPPY AND BLESSED THANKSGIVING EVERYONE.