Eyes Sealed Shut Will Stay That Way Until You Crave The Light Bad Enough.

There is too much beauty to see in the recreation of a self image.

The pinnacle of any experience is when you find the peak point of successfully meeting your goals and finding the full worth of what it is that you gain from the journey along the way. This works no differently with you and what you see your self to be vs what your situations “force you to live as” . I used to use my downfalls as a catalyst for my use of excuses to feed a person that I had never known and why it was not worth it to try.

The real matter at hand was that i was terrified to face my fears and tell them that they would no longer run my life the way that they wanted. I took control after hitting bottom after bottom and could no long take it anymore. You either push forward or give in completely and growing up as an athlete my mindset would not allow it. I looked my problems that had triumphed me for so long and told them that they had beat me for the last time. I literally left myself voice notes at 3 in the morning telling myself to listen to this in the morning and hear what it is that I had become vs. what I had always know, which was happiness. I have always been transparent because I don’t see a sense in lying.

Sometimes all people need is love through truth. I hid things for a long time not because i cared about myself, but somehow cared about the ones I love so much that I was willing to destroy myself to not hurt them. It got to the point that I had to be honest with myself not to die, and honest with them to hold hope. When this happened it lifted a weight off of my body and I began to fly. I have fallen, and I have failed, but I am soaring now and so can you. Open your heart and lift your eyes, because darkness will never be lifted unless you are first.

What will you do today to open your heart and your eyes with it to understand the beauty of life?