We stand in place while our demons operate in silence, until our heart beats loud enough to silence their operation.

Remove the things that holds false hope, and listen to your hearts way of telling your story.

We as humans are constantly putting on headphones that broadcast everything other than our own minds thoughts. I am not going to lead this personal experience with an “I remember approach”, because there are still certain things that I cannot simply bypass. There are things that I still deal with that exhaust my efforts of being better, yet I find ways of remembering the things that I do not want.

Keeping my mind quiet has always been something that I struggle to have make sense. I have full conversations with myself when I need to, about how to stay on my path and not give into traveling the path that my darkness wants me to. These conversations mostly include how strong I need myself to be through certain moments. When we answer our problems for so long with the same solutions, we require a change in everything, not just breaking our habits. This is why when we talk about hitting a true bottom, it is so important to understand the only direction as up.

There is no more making sense of looking around in search of nothing. There is not a mental change that is widely spoken of. There is a mental rewiring required to change the things needed to find the courage to love again. When you get to a certain point in time, you will know exactly when you are at a redefining moment that entirely depends on how you want things to proceed.

Yes or No? Do you want this bad enough, or are you ok staying within the state of denial as to the fact that you actually need it?